I have been writing in my phone’s notes section, but I haven’t posted a blog for so long now. I haven’t been feeling well but I will finally get to see a doctor soon and find out what’s going on. I’ve been dealing with pain in my neck and tingling in my right arm for about 4 weeks now. I found out today that I've lost reflex in my bicep in my right arm. I'm scheduled for a MRI next week. Honestly, my mind has been a mess lately. The pain I’m dealing with, broken relationships for stupid reasons, the NEVER-ENDING campaign ads from the midterm election. I just want peace. I’m trying so hard to stay positive and be hopeful for the future.
In the meantime, I have continued to learn more about how to run my own website. I have also joined the International Association of Women organization. I officially became a member on Monday, November 5, 2018. I am really excited about this opportunity and look forward to all the benefits that are included with this. I try to count my blessings every day. God is so patient and kind with me. I’m so lucky to be loved this much. I’m thankful for all the opportunities that God gives me. So thankful for family and friends.
On Friday, October 19, 2018, I felt very blessed to take my oldest daughter to a Twenty One Pilots concert in St. Louis, MO. The concert was amazing. If you are dealing with depression, anxiety or PTSD, I highly recommend listening to their music. They have helped my daughter through some of her toughest days. Then a week later, on Thursday, October 25, 2018, I attended the Project Pink Party with my mom, my sister and my sister-in-law. It was a great time for a good cause. I was honored to be there with my mom who I’ve mentioned before is a breast cancer survivor.
I know this is random but I need to get it off my chest and out of my mind. The following is a letter to the devil: Take a hike, devil. Get out of my life! Remove yourself from the lives of my family and friends. Actually,get out of this world. We don’t need you. You are just a menace to everything. Life is hard with your presence. It’s a daily painful struggle and I’m sick and tired of hearing about so much evil in this world. It’s all your fault and you need to disappear. And now for good news!! Jesus is our Father, our healer, and everything we need. His Love and Mercy will carry us through. I listen to alternative Christian radio on 106.5 Spirit FM at Camdenton, MO. I hear the testimonies of God’s grace from the artists and the listeners who call in. The wonderful D.J.'s are so cheerful and it's very calming to hear the good news from them everyday.
This world needs unity, love and respect. A little kindness goes a long way too. This time I will close with scripture from Proverbs 3:5-8 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take. Don’t be impressed with your own wisdom. Instead, fear the Lord and turn away from evil. Then you will have healing for your body and strength for your bones."
May God bless you and you feel his love and mercy and grace.